Trying to paint again

A very long time ago, almost wo decades, I've painted big abstrakt

 acrylic pictures on wood.

But than happened a lot of bad things in my life

 and most of these paintings are lost or destroyed... and I'm unleared to paint.

Lost my personal style. Never more tried...never could.

I never was a friend of watercolors or colorpencils, seems me to pale.

 I was always a woman of big formats and intensebright colors.

 A very long time ago.

My life is no more the same and the biggest problem is just to have a few
 free hours in one piece, without breaking and disruption.

 I cannot begin a big picture, when I know, that I must go away after one hour...

So I made only paper collages in last years. 

That I can break, whenever it must be and to begin it again is easy.

Never tried to draw on book sheets before - I grew up with a high regard 

for books and there is some overcoming for me to do what is popular today.

Finally I found an old destroyed book with loose leaves and I've just done it. 

Draw at them.

But which colors should I use?

 Thried this and that, but it wasn't the right... and than I found my nailpolish.

Have such a lot of nailpolish, the most I got for free in a shop, 

what was open the last day - the colors were so beautiful and I took a lot.

But never used: the colors don't fit with my skin tone or my clothing... 

and I'm so much working with my hands,

 that I cannot save the polish more than one day. Or only a few hours...

Well, let's try to paint with them!

First try with nailpolish, but it isn't really good. I don't like it.

Well, let me use it only partial.

Now I bought watercolors and the second try is a little better.

The white wings aren't good, they are to white!

At first I took white watercolor, but it wasn't really white and I tried white acrylic paint.

Must make that still better, but I think, that could be a way.

Let me try again. 

What you don't see in the photo: some colors are mat and others are shiny.

That's the special effect ;-)

Written for Weekend Journal Page by Jesh St.Germain

and Paint Party Friday

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